Xmas 2010

Well its safe to say that this will be a christmas I will never forget.  Today my sister-in-law called my mother a *itch.  i couldn't believe it.  Now tensions are high as we e waiting for a couple hours until we go to the airport.  Idk what will happen as the day goes on, but she is back tracking tryin to play the matyr.  I just don't uinderstand, I thought I would never see the day.


Sassy...never w/o attitude

Don't have that Information

So, right now I am at work.  Yes, I still work at a preschool.  I'm still a floater but my job is ending at the end of the month.  I will have to find another career or apply for another permenant position within the company.  I am currently sitting at a desk filling because there is not a secretary here at this center.  All of these parents keep showing up wanting to know if their child has been accepted so they can attend school here.  It's sad to tell them I don't know because they get soo frustrated and  have been waiting for such a long time.  But then you get those parents that want to give you an attitude and get mad at me like it is my fault.  Well people I am so sorry I don't have that information so please save the drama for your mama cause I don't wanna hear it.

Sassy...never w/o attitude

Activities

So officially started on Monday and boy is it really hot.  It's like 90 degrees during the day and then it thunder and lightening storms every night.  I did not get that memo.  But it is still nice not to be at work with screaming kids and clueless adults.  Oddly I haven't really done anything this summer worth writing about.  All I do is watch tv or get on my computer.  Sometimes I go outside and swing on our lawn swing.  I even tried picking back up the guitar but I get sooo frustrated that I put it back down again.  I haven't practiced my keyboard either.  Sooo lazy.  And I feel bad cause I want to learn and have patience. 

My birthday is coming up next week.  This weekend my bff ae ae is coming down to visit and we are goin to kingsisland.  So that will be nice.  At least I will get up out of the house and be active.  I'm sooo excited!!


Sassy...never w/o attitude

SUMMER

SCHOOL'S OUT FOR SUMMER!



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May

Well I didn't tell you but two weeks ago I got a new car. I was driving and my car stopped in the middle of the street. I was sooo upset. It is a chevy hhr , and it is silver.  I have also been kinda stressing out. Those kids are nuts and school is over next week. I think they just make bad choices on purpose because they know it is the end of the year.  And well I still have to find a job because school gets out for the summer. I really want to move to the west coast.  Well, cause who doesn't like warm weather. The midwest is making my head spin, but I will miss everyone. I don't know...maybe I just have to keep praying about it. Ta-ta for now.


Sassy...never w/o attitude

I Don't Deserve It

I'm sure everyone has that something that makes them cringe. Well for me right now it is my job.  I work at a preschool and some of these kids are crying out for attention.  They need love and support with positive reinforcement for when they act "bad".  But some of them are just rotten, rotten to the core.  Now is it their fault that they need "special" attention.  And when I say "special" I mean psychological.  They have behavioral issues and fly off the deepend at a moments notice just because the sun is shining.  I know that last part was a bit of an exaggeration but hopefully you get my drift.  The parents seem to some how feel ashamed  or are too proud to do anything for their child.  Because we do have the resources that they need.  If my child needed help, I would jump to find a way to get it them.  They would be the most important thing to me so it would not be an issue. 

I on the other hand don't have any kids but I love them.  Even the ones that are bad.  But it is not to say that I deserve to be cussed out or punched by a 3-5yr old.  I am on the verge of a break down. Some of these children just make me realize how lucky and blessed I was growing up.  If I ever acted the way that they are acting I probably wouldn't be here.  There was a certain level of respect for teachers, parents, and just elders in general.  I come to work and wonder what I did to deserve this.  I'm frustrated and I am not sure if I will make it.

Sassy...never w/o attitude

Talent

So last week I went to this open auditon for a talent agency.  I heard it broadcasted on the radio and I really didn't know what to expect.  When I got there it was a nice little turn out, not a lot of people but enough.  I was talking to this girl who thought she was probably the oldes person there. We were the same age and she was nice.  We were both there to sing, even though the judges were evaluating us on other things as well.  I didn't get a call back.  :(  But I am glad I had the experence of the audtion and got to see so many talented people.

It got me thinking if I'm ever going to get there.  I know nothing is ever given and you have to work for what you want.  I just find myself thinking that maybe I'm not good enough, or don't know the right people.  I'm not popular so I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.  It all may be true.  But this is not just something I woke up today and thought I want to do that and have x, y, z.  Music is all that I am. And no I maynot be as talented as some people but I have the heart and drive.  It's not something I can turn off and will never go away.  So be careful, don't underestimate me.

Sassy...never w/o attitude