Thursday, April 29, 2010

I Don't Deserve It

I'm sure everyone has that something that makes them cringe. Well for me right now it is my job.  I work at a preschool and some of these kids are crying out for attention.  They need love and support with positive reinforcement for when they act "bad".  But some of them are just rotten, rotten to the core.  Now is it their fault that they need "special" attention.  And when I say "special" I mean psychological.  They have behavioral issues and fly off the deepend at a moments notice just because the sun is shining.  I know that last part was a bit of an exaggeration but hopefully you get my drift.  The parents seem to some how feel ashamed  or are too proud to do anything for their child.  Because we do have the resources that they need.  If my child needed help, I would jump to find a way to get it them.  They would be the most important thing to me so it would not be an issue. 

I on the other hand don't have any kids but I love them.  Even the ones that are bad.  But it is not to say that I deserve to be cussed out or punched by a 3-5yr old.  I am on the verge of a break down. Some of these children just make me realize how lucky and blessed I was growing up.  If I ever acted the way that they are acting I probably wouldn't be here.  There was a certain level of respect for teachers, parents, and just elders in general.  I come to work and wonder what I did to deserve this.  I'm frustrated and I am not sure if I will make it.

Sassy...never w/o attitude

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